I'll have to admit that I am not a particularly spontaneous person.
Actually-I'm the "queen" of proper planning and scheduling.
I've been really trying to change that. Actually, recent events have rather forced me let go of a lot of my old beliefs and habits.
Recent events being having the rug pulled out financially...newcomers read my old (October and beyond) blog posts to understand.
Tonight Hubby and I were on our way home from the driving range where he "hit a few balls" and I had my afternoon walk.
We took Beach Road home- which runs parallel with the beach (imagine that).
As we drove along we noticed a particularly beautiful sunset blossoming over the ocean.
Suddenly...I just wanted to stop....I wanted to get out of the car and just stand on the beach.
Normally, I would have just kept my thoughts to myself....but not this evening...
"pull over...pull over!"
"huh?"
"look at the sunset, pull over....please"
...we pulled over, parked the car and walked down to the beach and sat on the edge of the beach-pathway.
Together....in silence...shoulder to shoulder.
We didn't say a word but the emotion between us was almost overwhelming.
we each knew what the other was thinking.....
that our time here was quickly coming to an end.....
that the sun was setting on our thirty years here....
that soon we would watch our last sunset on Saipan.....
we were both thinking about missing the kids......
that was not a tear rolling down my cheek....
not one rolling down his either.....
(sigh)
funny....for five years all we could think about was leaving this place...and now...although we are looking forward to leaving....
we both know there are so many things we will miss....
we only sat there for a few minutes-the mosquitoes urged us to get going
but it was a precious few minutes
he reached over in the car and took my hand...pulled it up to his cheek...
"I love you so much"
those words encompassed so much....so very much....
we will surely miss the beautiful Saipan sunsets....
note: as usual-we didn't have our camera with us so I borrowed some pictures of Saipan sunsets from a few other Saipan sites...
one in particular is a good friend of mine:
*edit: sorry for the mushy post....but it was a seriously emo moment
4 comments:
The photos of the sunset are stunning! I'm so jealous! lol I'm the same way with wanting things to be orderly and planned and have to make a conscious effort to be spontaneous sometimes.
I love the sweetness of the moment you shared.
That was a lovely post, Connie. No need to apologise. You gave me a lump in my throat.
Dearest Connie,
I have often heard of Saipan and from what I hear it is a very beautiful island. I was in Guam a year ago, from friends there I was told that indeed, Saipan has glorious sunrises and sunsets (just like my homeland, Philippines...) but now your post has made me teary eyed.
So beautiful what this is doing to you as a person. And your husband reaching over to hold your hand, and tell you how much he loves you.
Beautiful.
Actually I wanted to send you Valentine greetings. It was yesterday here, but in the US, it is still Valentine's Day evening...
Sending love your way, dear Connie.
All will be well. God is with you.
Much love
Lidj
Cindy,
I have to say-I have never seen such beautiful sunsets anywhere else in the world. They are truly breath-taking! I've let so much go lately...down to the very core-even my orderliness is being challenged!
Clare Maree,
It's always nice to hear that my heart-felt posts touched someone out there ....thank you!
Lidj,
Hugs to you...I know you must miss your husband so much...I am learning to treasure the everyday things of life. I mean really treasure them....
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